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Darkness itself is a Gift

Dom Brendan Thomas • Dec 01, 2019

Darkness arrives increasingly earlier this time of year, shrinking our days bit by bit. The night is almost over, says St Paul. But still we are in a moment of darkness, This is our Advent.

One of the loveliest, unexpected Advent voices is that of St John of the Cross, whose feast we will keep next week. The saint of the night, the saint of the dark night of the soul.

In Advent of 1577, on the night of 2nd December, John was led bound and blindfolded to a monastery in Toledo where his own brothers imprisoned him. How Christians sometimes treat each other! The oldest Spanish landscape painting is one by El Greco, a contemporary of John. By chance El Greco depicts the priory in which John was held captive, just below the old Moslem Alcazar, high up on cliffs. He paints the city as a dark brooding presence at almost at the same moment in history as John was imprisoned within. They were dark days. There have always been dark days.

John was there because he had refused to renounce his work with Teresa of Avila, a work of much-needed reform for the Church. He was confined to a room six feet wide and ten feet long without air or light except for whatever filtered through a small slit high up in the wall. He survived on bread and water. He was not allowed to bathe or change his clothes. His only excursion was to be brought down to the Refectory to receive the discipline of being publicly flogged by other monks. That was John’s Advent of 1577.

Yet it was there, in that small prison cell that John began to compose a poem first by memorising the words in the dark and later, thanks to a kind jailer, by writing them down. Nine months later he would miraculously escape, carrying in his pocket the manuscript of this poem that is one of the masterpieces of the Spanish Language. “On a dark night, on fire with love's deepest yearnings, oh, blessed chance, unnoticed I left my home, my house being now all stilled. Oh, night that guided me, oh, night more gentle than the dawn.”

For him the darkness was a place of discovery. On that dark night he composed a song of love, a human drama, of lover and beloved. He sang of the painful joy of seeking the most elusive lover of all, Christ himself. The night is not a negative image for John but a positive one, for the night was his moment of escape – when he found his freedom. The night was just the beginning of the journey.


‎The American poet Mary Oliver wrote: “Someone I loved once gave me a box full of darkness. It took me years to understand that this too, was a gift.” “The Uses of Sorrow” by Mary Oliver, from Thirst, 2007. Beacon Press.

We might think of the darkness of Advent as our particular gift. Advent days, if we use them well, can deliver stillness and focus, quiet reflection. The darkness can draw us inwards to honest reflection. Days to make us tender, because we may have been dealt a hand of dark suffering. But days of hope, because we also know of the dawn.

The night for John is a moment to focus on what really matters in life and what is extraneous, unnecessary. The night is there to declutter us of all that is not life-giving . He cautions us to not be distracted by the tinsel things, the trivial substitutes that we have for life with God. He says the night is God's best gift to us , intended for our liberation. Have we settled for something less than the true joy that God wants to give us, the life he wants us to live to the full with others, the love which is meant to permeate our being? Do I just cling to things that make me feel good and comfortable? Advent invites us not to rush to Christmas, not to get too caught up in the materialist bonanza that is going on, but to savour the dark days as a gift.

Pope John Paul thought the whole of Western Europe was going through a dark night of the soul. Certainly, our country seems to be in a pretty dark place and election time merely amplifies the hostility, division and rancour. An election could be a time of positive impetus to move the country forward with fresh ideas. One commentator this week spoke of feeling depressed, disenfranchised, disillusioned, disappointed and disgusted at the state of our politics. The quality of leadership, the lies and half-truths, the promises of bread and circuses if only we lend them our votes. These dark days of Advent are for us to reflect on the true values we seek and who is best fit to represent us and lead the country forward. Perhaps it comes down to character. The character of those individuals we choose to elect.

Then we are reminded of the terrorism, the anger and hatred into which our world has sunk. The twisted ideologies that make someone attack innocent victims on London Bridge. But then in this darkness we see amazing heroism: When the terrorist had already killed two people and injured others, two men – one with a large tusk, the other with a fire extinguisher go after him even though he’s wearing a suicide vest which they don’t know is fake. And just when everyone is cheering our British heroes we learn that one of them is a Polish immigrant, and another who came to the rescue a convicted murderer.

The world may be dark but we are a people of hope, and Advent is a time to exercise our hope muscles. We dream of a Kingdom of love, truth, justice and peace, that comes about only as each of us becomes the light of Christ in the world. “And soul by soul and silently her shining bounds increase, and her ways are ways of gentleness, and all her paths are peace.”

“The night is almost over, it will be daylight soon”, says St Paul. Pope Benedict wrote of the meaning of this season that we are entering:

"Advent reminds us, therefore, of two things: first that God’s presence in the world has already begun , that he is present, albeit in the hidden manner; second that his presence has only begun and is not yet full and complete, that it is in a state of development, of becoming, and maturing toward its full form. His presence has already begun and we, the faithful, are the ones through whom he wishes to be present in the world . Through our faith, hope, and love he wants his light to shine over and over again into the nights of the world." Joseph Ratzinger, Pope Benedict, Dogma and Preaching p.321

We can use Advent well to reflect on what we want to be as individuals and as a people. Let us enjoy these dark days: “Someone I loved once gave me a box full of darkness. It took me years to understand that this too, was a gift.”

By Abbot Paul 06 May, 2024
​Not such a bad Bank Holiday after all! The sun is shining still here at Belmont as I write this message, and it’s warm. There’s been a dog show practice on the lawns before the monastery and the sound of happy dogs interacting and enjoying the exercises. The first big move to Leominster will soon be on its way: at least there will be plenty of pictures for the blank walls and a fridge to keep things cool and fresh. I am grateful to the brethren and to dear friends for their help, more than help in fact, for they have done all the work. I have never lived alone, so this will be a new experience for me, which I’m looking forward to. Of course, I had hoped to have Toby with me, but that was not to be. The Lord works in mysterious ways! ​Our Gospel reading today, (Jn 16: 5-11), continues where yesterday’s left off. We are in John’s account of the Last Supper and listening to Jesus talking with his disciples, preparing them for his death and what lies beyond. He says, “Now I am going to the one who sent me. Not one of you has asked, “Where are you going?” Yet you are sad at heart because I have told you this. Still, I must tell you the truth: it is for your own good that I am going because unless I go, the Advocate will not come to you; but if I do go, I will send him to you.” ​Jesus is about to return to the Father. His telling them this has saddened his disciples, but he assures them that he is not leaving them, but will still be with them through the presence of the Holy Spirit, the Advocate or Paraclete. He says that his going from them is for their own good, for unless he leaves them, the Advocate, the Spirit of truth, will not come to them. Jesus himself will send them the Spirit who proceeds from the Father. But what will the Spirit do? “And when he comes, he will show the world how wrong it was, about sin, and about who was in the right, and about judgement: about sin: proved by their refusal to believe in me; about who was in the right: proved by my going to the Father and your seeing me no more; about judgement: proved by the prince of this world being already condemned.” This is quite difficult to understand and to explain in a few words, but it is the work of the Holy Spirit to enlighten people and convince them of sin, judgement and faith. Essentially, what is sin but the rejection of God and of his Son, our Saviour Jesus Christ? On that sin will we be judged. Belief or faith is really trust and obedience, conforming our lives to God’s will and acknowledging that he knows what is best for us. Lord, increase my faith and grant me the grace each day to live by faith in you. Amen.
By Abbot Paul 05 May, 2024
​What a lovely change yesterday and this morning, at least, to have some decent warm sunny weather for a change. Has this been the coldest and wettest Spring ever? I seem to have been driving constantly through rain and negotiating flooded roads for the past months. It’s hard to believe that Summer is just around the corner. This week, with the help of community and friends, I will begin clearing my quarters at Belmont in preparation for the move to Leominster and Bromyard when I retire as Abbot at the end of the month. ​We continue our reading of John, (Jn 15: 26 – 16: 4), carrying on where we left off on Saturday. Jesus has spoken of the suffering and persecution that lie ahead for his followers. No doubt they are wondering how they will cope with this and respond. Jesus promises them the Advocate, the Paraclete. He says: “When the Advocate comes, whom I shall send to you from the Father, the Spirit of truth who issues from the Father, he will be my witness. And you too will be witnesses, because you have been with me from the outset. ​​​​I have told you all this that your faith may not be shaken.” ​The Holy Spirit comes from the Father but is sent by the Son: an interesting dynamic. He is the Spirit of truth, who will bear witness to Jesus, just as his disciples will bear witness to Jesus. Although Jesus doesn’t say so at this stage, it is the Paraclete who will enable the disciples to bear witness with vigour and courage, for the Spirit of truth will be with them and will speak in them and on their behalf. Jesus wishes to tranquilize his disciples, lest they run away in fear. ​​Jesus becomes more specific about the kind of persecution they will have to deal with, beginning with expulsion from the synagogue. “They will expel you from the synagogues, and indeed the hour is coming when anyone who kills you will think he is doing a holy duty for God. They will do these things because they have never known either the Father or myself. But I have told you all this, so that when the time for it comes you may remember that I told you.” The jump from expulsion by their coreligionists soon escalates into full-blown rejection and murder by “anyone” who thinks he is doing a duty for God or, indeed, for the state or the state religion. Those perpetrating such barbaric acts know neither Jesus nor the Father. Let’s be honest, 2,000 years on this is still happening. We need Christ’s assurance of the Advocate more than ever today, remembering that persecution takes many forms, some more subtle and destructive than others. Jesus is warning us today as he warned his first disciples back then. We must remember what Jesus promised us, that we are not alone and that the Paraclete, the Spirit of truth, will never let us down. Lord, grant us a permanent awareness of the Spirit’s presence in our lives. Amen.
By Abbot Paul 04 May, 2024
Our Gospel passage for today, (Jn 15:9-17), is part of Jesus’ farewell discourse to his disciples at the Last Supper according to John, in which we find many of the themes and phrases that we have been meditating on over the past two weeks. “As the Father has loved me, so I have loved you. Remain in my love. If you keep my commandments you will remain in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commandments and remain in his love. I have told you this so that my own joy may be in you and your joy be complete.” Just in that short passage, the verb remain, or better still, abide, occurs three times, the word joy, twice. The verb to love occurs twice and the noun love, three times. Finally, to keep the commandments appears twice. They are key words in John and occur more times as we go through his Gospel. Jesus’ love for us enables us to abide in his love, to live in and through his love, which is permanent and unconditional, if demanding, for it requires obedience to the will of God as manifest in the commandments. But that abiding in God’s love enables us to keep the commandments not out of fear, but for love’s sake, and therein lies our joy. “This is my commandment: love one another, as I have loved you. A man can have no greater love than to lay down his life for his friends. You are my friends, if you do what I command you.” We still find the words commandment and love, but a new word appears, friends. So great is Jesus’ love for us that he lays down his life for us, and now he calls us friends. Friendship implies obedience in the true sense of the word, to listen to the other, not superficially, but in the very depth of one’s heart, heart speaking unto heart, as St John Henry Newman wrote. A good meditation for today would be to consider the many ways in which we can lay down our lives for others and what true friendship really means. ​Jesus develops the theme of friendship and its implications, when he says to his disciples:​​“I shall not call you servants any more, because a servant does not know his master’s business; I call you friends, because I have made known to you everything I have learnt from my Father. You did not choose me: no, I chose you; and I commissioned you to go out and to bear fruit, fruit that will last; and then the Father will give you anything you ask him in my name. What I command you is to love one another.” There are several implications for the relationship between Jesus and his disciples: they are no longer servants or simply followers of Jesus; they have been chosen by him and given a commission, not simply to bear fruit, but to go out and bear fruit, fruit that will last. In other words they are given the mission to proclaim the Gospel and draw others into the fellowship of the Christian community, a community of friends; they are to pray and intercede for others, for the Father will listen to their prayers; above all, they are to love one another: that is the fundamental command of Jesus, love. ​Let us pray for the grace today and always to abide in Jesus, so that we might love others and he loves us, and return his friendship with our own, as we too give up our lives for our friends, Amen.
By Abbot Paul 03 May, 2024
​Today the Church in England keeps the feast of All the Martyrs of England, referring to the Catholic martyrs of the Reformation. In Wales the feast of the Six Martyrs of Wales and their Companions is kept on 25th October. The Benedictine Calendar, which we keep at Belmont, refers to All the Martyrs of England and Wales. Now these do not include such famous English and Welsh martyrs as Alban, Julius and Aaron, Tydful, Issui, Cadoc, Ethelbert of Hereford, Edmund and so on, but only the martyrs of the Reformation, all of whom also have their own feast day which is kept locally, such as St John Kemble and Blessed Richard Cadwallador in Herefordshire and St David Lewis in Monmouthshire, or St Thomas More and St John Fisher nationally. It strikes me as being rather confusing. Even so, it’s good to celebrate our saints and martyrs and turn to them for their intercession, praying for the grace to follow their example of fidelity to Christ and his Church.​ We come to the end of another week and so get closer to the solemnity of the Ascension of Our Lord, which we will celebrate this coming Thursday. The liturgy over the next few days builds up towards that great feast day and this includes the readings at Mass. Our Gospel today follows on from that part of the farewell discourse which we read yesterday, (Jn 15: 18-21). Jesus is preparing his disciples for what lies ahead. He has assured them of the Father’s love and has asked them to remain as close to him as branches are to a vine. If they wish to bear fruit to the glory of the Father, then they must remain part of the true vine, Jesus himself. Being a disciple is far from lying on a bed of roses! It means going against the current of popular thought and fashion. It means remaining true to Christ and his Gospel and obedient to his commandments, Jesus tells his disciples, and let us not forget that he is speaking to us too. The Gospel is not just some historic text. It is the living word of God speaking to us now. “If the world hates you, remember that it hated me before you. If you belonged to the world, the world would love you as its own; but because you do not belong to the world, because my choice withdrew you from the world, ​​​​therefore the world hates you.”​​ We should not be surprised if we are hated, disliked or mistrusted. Our decision, our fundamental option to follow Christ has put us on a collision course with the world, with those who do not share our faith and commitment. Because we are branches of the true vine, our world view will often be different to that of those around us. The same goes for our moral and ethical choices. There is much in the world today that contradicts the teaching of the Scriptures and the Moral Theology of the Church. The fact is that we have been chosen by Christ to be his disciples and we must be true to that calling. ​Jesus then reminds us that, “A servant is not greater than his master.” He asks us to remember that always, for whatever his enemies do to him, they will also do to us. Christianity isn’t a free ride, but, as Dietrich Bonhoeffer explains in his outstanding book The Cost of Discipleship, grace, though a gift, does not come cheap. “If they persecuted me, they will persecute you too; if they kept my word, they will keep yours as well. But it will be on my account that they will do all this, because they do not know the one who sent me.” Christianity thrives under persecution, for suffering ups the quality of our commitment to Christ and his Gospel. We need only look at the millions of Christian martyrs through the centuries. We should be prepared to suffer on account of our faith, of our allegiance to Jesus and his Church. In the light of Easter and the glory of the Resurrection and in the shadow of the Cross, all suffering is put into perspective, for the servant is no greater than his master. No matter where we have to walk, Jesus goes before us to lead the way and guide us from darkness into light, from sorrow into joy, from suffering to glory and from death to life. He is truly the Way, the Truth and the Life.
By Abbot Paul 03 May, 2024
​Although we now celebrate the Apostles Philip and James on 3rd May, this was originally, and still is in Peru and many other countries, the Feast of the Finding of the Holy Cross, here we continue our reading of that final discourse Jesus gave to his disciples at the Last Supper, as recorded in John, (Jn 15: 12-17), and we continue where we left off yesterday. Jesus is speaking of the Father’s love, that the love he has for Jesus is reflected in the love that Jesus has for his disciples. He says, “This is my commandment: ​​​​love one another, as I have loved you.” Now that love which Jesus has for us, must be reciprocated in the love we have for others. We are to love others in the same way as Jesus loves us. He goes on, “A man can have no greater love than to lay down his life for his friends. You are my friends, if you do what I command you. I shall not call you servants any more, because a servant does not know his master’s business; I call you friends, because I have made known to you everything I have learnt from my Father.” But for Jesus, what does love mean, other than, ”to lay down ones life for ones friends’? Jesus proposes a sacrificial love than which no other love is greater. To love means to give oneself unconditionally to others, even to the shedding of our blood. That is how Jesus loves us and has given himself up for our forgiveness and salvation, that we might be reconciled with God through him. Not only are we loved and expected to love equally in return, but we are called, and truly are, friends of Jesus. We are friends with whom Jesus has shared everything the Father has taught the Son. Jesus opens up for us his knowledge of the Father’s heart. ​Jesus then reminds us that we have been called and chosen for a purpose. “You did not choose me: no, I chose you; and I commissioned you to go out and to bear fruit, fruit that will last; and then the Father will give you anything you ask him in my name. What I command you is to love one another.” Jesus chooses his disciples; they do not choose him, but we are commissioned for a special reason, to bear fruit that will last. That will be the proof of love for which God will give us anything we ask him in his name. The Christian life is born of love and leads to love, which is why Jesus repeats that commandment of love. We are to love one another with a perfect love, the love that casts out all fear, that unconditional love which comes to us from God. Lord, you have taught us many things. Teach us how to love according to your heart and mind Amen.
By Abbot Paul 02 May, 2024
​Today we keep the feast of St Athanasius of Alexandria, the great theologian and Doctor of the Church, who also wrote the life of St Antony of Egypt, the Father of Christian Monasticism. It was Athanasius who, while still a deacon, saved the Church from falling into generalised heresy by combatting and overcoming the Arians at the Ecumenical Council of Nicaea. It was also Athanasius who, on one of his several exiles in Rome, brought monks from Egypt to Rome. These were soon followed by monk refugees from Syria, whom St Benedict met as a young boy in Nursia. The Universal Church owes a great debt to St Athanasius and we should get to know him better and venerate him more.​ ​One of the main differences between John and the three Synoptic Gospels is the number of long discourses given by Jesus, whether to his disciples, as after the feeding of the five thousand, or to the crowds in general. The only real parallel, in length at least, is the Sermon on the Mount, that we find in Matthew. The longest of the discourses in John is that of Jesus at the Last Supper, short sections of which we have been reading over the last ten days or so. Today we continue where we left off yesterday with the metaphor of the true vine. You will have noticed that in John the same words, phrases and ideas recur frequently. Jesus had been talking of the union that must exist between his disciples and himself and how this should reflect that union which exists between himself and the Father. As the branches are connected to the vine, so should we remain and make our home in him. Jesus now moves on to the theme of love. If God is love, as we read in John’s First Letter, (1 Jn 4: 7), then any relationship or union with him must be a loving one. “God is love, and whoever abides in love abides in God, and God abides in him.” In the discourse Jesus says to his disciples (Jn 15: 9-11), “As the Father has loved me, so I have loved you. Remain in my love. If you keep my commandments you will remain in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commandments and remain in his love. I have told you this so that my own joy may be in you and your joy be complete.” What powerful words these are. That the love with which the Father loves the Son should be reflected in the love with which the Son loves us is an amazing thought. God raises us to his level. Jesus calls his disciples friends and, in the Old Testament, Abraham was known as the friend of God. Friendship and love make people equals and, in Christ, God raises us up to be his beloved daughters and sons. He invites us to remain in his love, asking us to keep his commandments, which we long to keep because we know that we are loved and our only wish is to love God in return. What greater joy could there be than to remain in God’s love, to live knowing that we are loved by God. In that way, as Jesus says, not only his joy, but our joy too, will be complete. What more could we ask?
By Abbot Paul 30 Apr, 2024
​It’s somewhat difficult to write a short message on a Gospel text twice in one week. Today’s Gospel passage, (Jn 15: 1-8), was also read on Sunday. It’s that part of Jesus’ farewell discourse at the Last Supper, where he compares the union that must exist between his disciples and himself to a vine and its branches. It’s a beautiful image with a vivid metaphor to describe that most intimate union between God and ourselves in, through and with Christ Jesus. At key moments in his ministry, Christ emphasized his equality with God in the clearest possible terminology. The strongest affirmations of his divinity employed the name for God used when the Father first revealed himself to Moses, "I AM" or “I AM WHO I AM” (Exodus 3:14). Jesus has already said, "I am the Light of the world" (John 8:12); "I am the Bread of Life" (John 6:35); "I am the Way, the Truth and the Life" (John 14:6); and "I am the Door" (John 10:9), “I am the Good Shepherd” (Jn 10:11) and, my favourite, “Before Abraham was, I am” (Jn 8: 58). Now, the night before his Passion and Death, he tells them, "I am the Vine." Like the other great "I am" passages recorded in the Gospel of John, it points to his divinity. Each one is a metaphor that elevates Jesus to the level of Creator, Sustainer, Saviour and Lord, all titles that can be claimed by God alone. ​“Jesus said to his disciples: ‘I am the true vine, and my Father is the vinedresser. Every branch in me that bears no fruit he cuts away, and every branch that does bear fruit he prunes to make it bear even more. You are pruned already, by means of the word that I have spoken to you. Make your home in me, as I make mine in you. As a branch cannot bear fruit all by itself, but must remain part of the vine, neither can you unless you remain in me.’” Jesus says that his disciples are like branches that bear fruit but need pruning. There is no such thing as a fruitless Christian. Every Christian bears some fruit. You may have to look hard to find even a small grape, but if you look hard enough, you will find something. It is the essence of the Christian life to bear fruit and, in Matthew, Jesus says, “By their fruits you will know them.” (Mt 7: 16). The Greek word Jesus uses for “to prune” also means “to cleanse”, so this gives us an indication of what pruning really means for Jesus, “who came to save his people from their sins.” Pruning is necessary in our spiritual lives. The Father removes our sins and all superfluous things that limit our fruitfulness. One of the best ways to cleanse us is to allow suffering to come into our lives. He prunes us with a vinedresser's knife, which is the word of God. Sometimes it hurts, and we question what he is doing. It may seem we are the only branch getting pruned, while other branches need it more. But the Vinedresser knows what he is doing. Spiritual pruning can take many forms. it may be sickness, hardships or loss of material possessions. It may be persecution or slander from non-Christians. For some it is the loss of a loved one or grief in a relationship. Or it may be a combination of some or all of these. Whatever the method, the effect is to narrow our focus and improve the quality of our fruit. Whatever the method of pruning God uses, we can be assured that he cares for us and wants us to bear much fruit. He wants to free us from what drains our life and energy. He continues his care throughout our lives to keep us spiritually healthy and productive. ​Above all, what is truly essential is that we remain united to Christ and “live in him”. Just as he is united with the Father and is one with him. “I am the vine, you are the branches. Whoever remains in me, with me in him, bears fruit in plenty; for cut off from me you can do nothing. Anyone who does not remain in me is like a branch that has been thrown away – he withers; these branches are collected and thrown on the fire, and they are burnt. If you remain in me and my words remain in you, you may ask what you will and you shall get it. It is to the glory of my Father that you should bear much fruit, and then you will be my disciples.” Jesus shares his very life with us by giving us the gift of the Holy Spirit, feeding us with his Body and Blood and instructing us with his Word. In this way, we will be united with Jesus and in him with the Father, whose greatest desire is that we should bear much fruit. God has no other desire than what is best for us.
By Abbot Paul 29 Apr, 2024
​It’s interesting to note that, as we come to the end of Eastertide, we are still reading Jesus’ farewell discourse to his disciples given at the Last Supper, (Jn 14: 27-31). They can sense that things are coming to a head and Jesus is preparing them, as he has been doing all along, for his ultimate destiny, his Passion, Death and Resurrection. He says to his disciples, “Peace I bequeath to you, my own peace I give you, a peace the world cannot give, this is my gift to you.” Jesus utters the word ‘peace’ three times; it is his gift to the disciples, which only he can give and is not a worldly peace. It is not the absence of conflict or of war, the absence of noise, disorder, or chaos. It is the peace that comes from a clear conscience, a living faith and the joy of the Holy Spirit. It is the peace of heart and mind that comes with forgiveness of sin and union with God in Christ. He continues, “Do not let your hearts be troubled or afraid. You heard me say: I am going away, and shall return. If you loved me, you would have been glad to know that I am going to the Father, for the Father is greater than I. I have told you this now before it happens, so that when it does happen you may believe.” Reading their hearts, he is aware of their fear and confusion, their anxiety for the future. Without Jesus, what will become of them? Jesus comforts them, assuring them that he will return to be with them, even if beforehand he must leave them to return to the Father. It will be a test of their love for him. Nevertheless, he has warned them, so that they will not be taken by surprise when the time, which is at hand, comes. ​John presents the Passion of Christ as a conflict between good and evil, God and the powers of darkness. Jesus says, “I shall not talk with you any longer, because the prince of this world is on his way. He has no power over me, but the world must be brought to know that I love the Father and that I am doing exactly what the Father told me.” The prince of this world is more than Judas, the high priests and Pontius Pilate. They are simply agents, puppets of Satan, the source of evil, death and destruction, the lord of chaos. But he has no power over Jesus, who loves the Father and is doing the Father’s will. The disciples must understand that what is about to happen is all part of God’s plan for the salvation of the world. Although we love the Passion story, we still ask why God had to save us in this way, through sacrifice, suffering and death? The Byzantine Easter chant celebrates Christ’s Death and Resurrection in this way. “Χριστός ανέστη εκ νεκρών, θανάτω θάνατον πατήσας, και τοις εν τοις μνήμασι ζωήν χαρισάμενος.” Here is a translation, “Christ is risen from the dead, trampling down death by death, and to those in the tombs, granting life.” Yes, in his Resurrection, Christ Jesus has trampled down death with death, thereby assuring us of eternal life. This faith gave the martyrs courage and peace to face the pain and desolation of martyrdom. May it give us the grace to live our faith boldly today, sharing God’s love and loving kindness with all we meet.
By Abbot Paul 28 Apr, 2024
​Today we celebrate the feast of an extraordinary woman, St Catherine of Siena, who died on this day in the year 1380 aged just 33, exhausted by her vigorous fasting. Although always depicted in a Dominican habit, she wasn’t an enclosed nun but a lay associate of the Order. She was a mystic, a writer and a religious-cum-political activist, if that’s the right term. She was canonised on 29th June 1461 and was declared a Doctor of the Church by Pope St Paul VI in 1970. She is also a Patron of Europe. Catherine is one of the outstanding figures of medieval Catholicism, by the strong influence she had on the history of the papacy and her prolific writing. She was behind the return of the Pope from Avignon to Rome, and then carried out many missions entrusted to her by the Pope, something quite rare for a woman in the Middle Ages. Her Dialogue of Divine Providence, hundreds of letters, and dozens of prayers, also give her a prominent place in the history of spirituality as well as of Italian literature. She led a fascinating life from the moment of her birth until the Lord took her to himself. A good biography and immersion into her writings would be powerfully rewarding. She really is a most attractive figure. ​The short Gospel passage chosen for her feast comes from Matthew, (Mt 11: 25-30), those lovely words of Jesus addressed to his heavenly Father. “I bless you, Father, Lord of heaven and of earth, for hiding these things from the learned and the clever and revealing them to mere children. Yes, Father, for that is what it pleased you to do. Everything has been entrusted to me by my Father; and no one knows the Son except the Father, just as no one knows the Father except the Son and those to whom the Son chooses to reveal him.” Catherine was a mere child, just five years old, when she had her first mystical experience, a vision of Christ in glory. At the age of seven, she vowed to give her whole life to God. When in her teens, her parents wanted her to marry, but she refused, knowing that her vocation was to go beyond domestic duties and motherhood. Nor did she want to become a nun. She chose instead to live an active and prayerful life outside the convent walls following the model of the Dominicans. Just as the Father entrusted all things to Jesus, so she believed that God had entrusted her with an important mission, that of purifying and uniting the Church, and she wasn’t afraid to stand up and preach to the crowds or even to tell popes and princes what and what not to do. ​Jesus continues with words of encouragement and consolation, words that were the very basis of Catherine’s life of devotion and service. “Come to me, all you who labour and are overburdened, and I will give you rest. Shoulder my yoke and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. Yes, my yoke is easy and my burden light.” Jesus invites us all, as he did his beloved servant Catherine, to come to him for rest and support. We all get tired and overburdened, but Jesus is always with us to support and carry us. Our lives can be fruitful in weakness as well as in strength, but we must learn from Jesus to be both gentle and humble, opening our hearts to him and offering him our lives. Catherine was an exceptional woman, but in many ways, she was also quite ordinary, like you and me. Let us never lose courage or hope and let us ask her to pray for us and our loved ones. Catherine shines brightly among the mystics and spiritual writers of the Church. She remains a greatly respected figure for her writings and political boldness to "speak truth to power," it being exceptional for a woman, at that time, to have had such influence in politics and on world history. We pray for such women today.
By Abbot Paul 27 Apr, 2024
​It’s good to be back at Belmont, but after the warmth of Peru, this cold, damp weather leaves a lot to be desired. I was blessed in having friends meet me at the airport yesterday and taking me home so that I could have a good rest before coming back to the monastery and a rather heavy weekend when suffering from jetlag. Apart from waking up to drink water and take my medication, I rested in bed until gone 1pm, something quite unheard of for me and impossible in the monastery. The journey home was tiring and I’d had little rest in Peru with a full programme most days. I give thanks to God for the warmth and love of the Peruvian people, both in the monastery and outside. I apologise for not writing a proper message yesterday. ​​Whereas the Synoptic Gospels, Matthew, Mark and Luke, contain parables that often begin like this, “The kingdom of heaven can be compared to….”, John‘s Gospel is not graced in the same way with parables. In John. we find a simpler, more direct way of saying things, as in today’s Gospel passage, (Jn 15: 1-8), where Jesus begins by saying, “I am the true vine, and my Father is the vinedresser. Every branch in me that bears no fruit he cuts away, and every branch that does bear fruit he prunes to make it bear even more.” This is a metaphor, the simple way in which Jesus says complex and complicated things. He doesn’t say I am like a vine, but I am the true vine. This is yet another one of the famous I AM sayings in John. Jesus talks of his relationship with the Father and with his disciples or followers. Jesus is the vine, while the Father’s task is to tend the vine, cutting off branches that bear no fruit and pruning those that do. Either way, for the vine and for the branches, it is a painful process. You could say that Christ’s Passion and Death are that cutting away and pruning. If we, as the branches, are to bear much fruit, then we must accept a regular pruning, and if we bear no fruit, then we should expect to be cut away. However, we will be given chance after chance. Hence the importance of what he says next. “Make your home in me, as I make mine in you. As a branch cannot bear fruit all by itself, but must remain part of the vine, neither can you unless you remain in me.” Abide in me, remain in me, stay with me, be with me always, be united to me. As a branch alone cannot survive without the vine, neither can we have life and bear fruit if we are not one with Jesus. Just as he and the Father are one, so must we be one with him. This is more than a plea for unity, it’s a statement of what must be, if God’s will is to be fulfilled. ​​To hammer home his point, Jesus continues by saying, “I am the vine, you are the branches. Whoever remains in me, with me in him, bears fruit in plenty; for cut off from me you can do nothing. Anyone who does not remain in me is like a branch that has been thrown away – he withers; these branches are collected and thrown on the fire, and they are burnt.” Jesus’ words are kind and inviting. He promises us an abundance of fruit, if we remain with him and abide in him. However, he never beats around the bush. The alternative is grim indeed and, sadly, many choose it. He is telling us straight: either you are with me or you can’t be part of me, you’re against me, but the choice is yours. You choose your own fate. He ends on a positive note, because both he and the Father want us to be true disciples and to bear much fruit. He says, “If you remain in me and my words remain in you, you may ask what you will and you shall get it. It is to the glory of my Father that you should bear much fruit, and then you will be my disciples.” First of all, we are given the assurance that whatever we ask for in prayer will be given us, provided we abide in Jesus and keep his commandments, thereby syntonising with the will of God. Secondly, by the fruits we bear, we will give glory to God and become more truly Christ’s disciples. This is more than we can understand or believe. Not even in our wildest dreams could we believe this to be true, and yet they are the words of Jesus spoken at the Last Supper, that most solemn moment of his life here on earth with his disciples. If we take these words of Jesus to heart and live by them, then God will be with us always, Father, Son and Holy Spirit.
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