​So, we come to the Vigil of Pentecost and wait longingly for a new outpouring of the Holy Spirit. That has been our constant prayer, not only since Ascension Day, but throughout Eastertide and the day we celebrated the Lord’s Resurrection. We long to be renewed by the presence of the Spirit in our hearts and yearn to be reconsecrated as temples of the Holy Spirit. It’s important for us to realise that this is exactly what our heavenly Father wants too and for that he sent his only begotten Son into the world to redeem the world. As Jesus said to Nicodemus, “God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but that through him it might be saved.” (John 3:17) It’s good to know that God is on our side and that he loves us with an infinite and unconditional love. I always think of the words addressed by Juliet to Romeo, “My bounty is as boundless as the sea, my love as deep; the more I give to thee, the more I have, for both are infinite.” ​This morning’s Gospel passage follows on from yesterday’s conversation between Jesus and Simon Peter and is the conclusion of John (Jn 21: 20-25). To begin with, there is the question of the unnamed disciple, often referred to as the Beloved Disciple and probably John himself. He must have been the youngest of the Twelve. “Peter turned and saw the disciple Jesus loved following them – the one who had leaned on his breast at the supper and had said to him, ‘Lord, who is it that will betray you?’ Seeing him, Peter said to Jesus, ‘What about him, Lord?’ Jesus answered, ‘If I want him to stay behind until I come, what does it matter to you? You are to follow me.’ The rumour then went out among the brothers that this disciple would not die. Yet Jesus had not said to Peter, ‘He will not die’, but, ‘If I want him to stay behind until I come.’” Jesus teaches Peter the lesson that he must not be concerned about the end of a fellow apostle, rather he must obey the word of Jesus to follow him. He must focus on what is essential. All that really matters is that Peter should follow Jesus faithfully. The apostles haven’t been called either to compete with each other or to be envious or jealous of one another. What is important is what follows. We are told that, “This disciple is the one who vouches for these things and has written them down, and we know that his testimony is true.” The beloved disciple is the source and witness of what is written in this book and “his testimony is true.” ​ ​Finally come the concluding words of John. “There were many other things that Jesus did; if all were written down, the world itself, I suppose, would not hold all the books that would have to be written.” This book only contains a rough sketch, as it were, an outline with a few examples of the life and ministry of Jesus, his teaching and miracles. Not even the whole world would be large enough to contain the books that would need to be written to tell it all. And there we have it. The Gospel continues to be written today in our own lives and our friendship with Jesus and our common discipleship. As we come to the end of each day, it’s a good idea to look back over the day and read the pages that have been written about Jesus Christ and his relationship with each one of us. And remember, the last page will only come to be written on the Last Day.
​Today our Gospel passage from John, (Jn 21: 15-19), takes us on from the Last Supper to one of the post-resurrection appearances of Jesus to his disciples. It takes place on the shore of Lake Galilee, where Jesus has encouraged his disciples to cast out deeper into the waters for a miraculous catch and then shared breakfast with them. It’s at this point that we pick up the story, with the conversation between Jesus and Simon Peter. “After they had eaten, he said to Simon Peter, ‘Simon son of John, do you love me more than these others do?’ He answered, ‘Yes Lord, you know I love you.’ Jesus said to him, ‘Feed my lambs.’ A second time he said to him, ‘Simon son of John, do you love me?’ He replied, ‘Yes, Lord, you know I love you.’ Jesus said to him, ‘Look after my sheep.’ Then he said to him a third time, ‘Simon son of John, do you love me?’ Peter was upset that he asked him the third time, ‘Do you love me?’ and said, ‘Lord, you know everything; you know I love you.’ Jesus said to him, ‘Feed my sheep.’” Why would Jesus ask Peter three times whether he loves him? Could it be because Peter denied him three times? Or, perhaps, to make sure and confirm that Peter was making a firm commitment to the love that demands service and self-giving, for each time Peter replies that he does, even to the extent of becoming angry and impatient that Jesus should ask him three times, Jesus replies by saying, “Feed my lambs. Feed my sheep”. Do we love Jesus as Peter did and to what does that love commit us? ​Then Jesus warns Peter of what that love will ultimately lead to and the death he will face for love of Jesus. “I tell you most solemnly, when you were young you put on your own belt and walked where you liked; but when you grow old you will stretch out your hands, and somebody else will put a belt round you and take you where you would rather not go. In these words, he indicated the kind of death by which Peter would give glory to God. After this he said, ‘Follow me.’” You could say that the Gospel story begins with the calling of the first disciples, Jesus saying to those he has chosen, “Follow me.” Now the Gospel ends with the very same words, “Follow me,” for in life and in death, Jesus calls us to follow him, to take up our cross daily and follow him, to preach the Gospel by our faithfulness and humility, our love and generosity, by the very integrity of our lives. Let us remember those words of Jesus every day, no matter where we are or what we’re doing, in any and every circumstance, “Follow me.” May the Holy Spirit empower us to say with Peter, “You know, Lord, that I love you.” Amen.
​The weather yesterday in Herefordshire was quite spectacular, nothing like the forecast had predicted, but hot and sunny, ideal weather for the May Procession in honour of Our Lady. It’s always a great occasion, uplifting and devotional, where hundreds of faithful disciples of Jesus openly show their love for his Holy Mother and ask her intercession for their loved ones and all those who need her protection and her prayers. It invariably ends when thousands of rose petals float down from heaven, or at least the church tower, and envelope Our Lady with glorious light and colour. Our simple faith is always strengthened by this and similar wonderful occasions. ​We continue our reading of the High Priestly Prayer, which Jesus said in the presence of his disciples at the end of the Last Supper, (Jn 17: 20-26). In this section of the prayer, Jesus commends to his Father’s loving care those who, in due course, would become his disciples, as a result of the witness of the Twelve. “Holy Father, I pray not only for these, but for those also who through their words will believe in me. May they all be one. Father, may they be one in us, as you are in me and I am in you, so that the world may believe it was you who sent me.” Jesus prays for you and me and for all those who will follow us through our witness, for this handing on of the faith carries on from one generation to the next. Jesus prays that we may be one in the Father and the Son, in the same way as the Father and the Son are one in each other. Our unity is to reflect that of God himself, three persons in one God. The tragedy of Christianity is its divisions, which give an anti-testimony to the truth of the Gospel and redeeming work of Jesus. One of the Church’s most important duties is to pray and work for unity. This is not some vague, pious hope, but the will of God. Jesus focuses more than once on this need for unity. We are to be, ”so completely one that the world will realise that it was you who sent me.” ​​“I have given them the glory you gave to me, that they may be one as we are one. With me in them and you in me, may they be so completely one that the world will realise that it was you who sent me and that I have loved them as much as you loved me.” Our unity will also be a sign of God’s love for us, not one sign among many, but the fundamental, essential sign that God loves us. ​Not only does Jesus want his disciples to be united, but to be with him where he is, that we might see his glory. “Father, I want those you have given me to be with me where I am, so that they may always see the glory you have given me because you loved me before the foundation of the world.” The Father has loved the Son from before time began. The Son is eternal as the Father is eternal, the Spirit being that love which unites them to one another and to us. Even before we were created, God loved us in Christ. We were created to be loved by God. “Father, Righteous One, the world has not known you, but I have known you, and these have known that you have sent me. I have made your name known to them and will continue to make it known, so that the love with which you loved me may be in them, and so that I may be in them.” The Son has revealed the Father to us and the depth of the Father’s love and he will continue to make that love known in the way we love one another, a love which will bear witness to the love of God. The love which is in us is that self-same love with which the Father loves the Son and is the gift of the Holy Spirit. This all sounds too good to be true and it’s hard to believe that we are worthy of God’s love. But “God is love” and there can be no doubt that he loves us. This doesn’t make life easier or our sufferings less, but we do begin to make sense of it all, as well as of the ultimate purpose of life. Why was I born? To be loved by God and to love in return.
​Tonight, we will be celebrating our Annual Torchlight Procession in honour of Our Lady. I hope you are able to join us. It begins at 9.00pm and ends about 10.30pm. It’s always the most uplifting celebration and for me, this year will be my last May Procession as Abbot. In three weeks’ time, Belmont will have a new Abbot. This year we are a week behind schedule, as Ascension Day fell on the second Thursday of the month. ​​Our Gospel passage today takes us further into our reading of the High Priestly Prayer, that Jesus addressed to his Father in the presence of his disciples at the very end of the Last Supper, before setting off to the Garden of Gethsemane where his Passion would begin. The reading is, in fact, the very same as we heard at Mass on Sunday, (Jn 17: 11-19). If you still have it to hand, you could reread what I wrote then. This intimate prayer of Jesus was meant to be overheard by his disciples and transmitted to the Church and successive generations of disciples, right down to the present day. The words were spoken by Jesus for us. When we hear the Gospel proclaimed at Mass or simply read it at home in our Bibles or Missals, Jesus is addressing us here and now; he is speaking directly to us, for we are the disciples he has called to follow him today. Listening to his voice or hearing of his actions always leads us to question the depth and integrity of our faith. In other words, we are called to conversion and repentance, to return to God and allow him to heal our waywardness and touch our hearts and minds with his redeeming grace, so that we can walk as men and women renewed and transformed. Jesus wishes to share his joy with us to the full and, for this reason, he asks the Father to consecrate us in the truth. Today’s reading ends with these words of Jesus, “for their sake I consecrate myself so that they too may be consecrated in truth.”​​ ​​If we wish to follow in the footsteps of the great saints, then we must allow our heavenly Father to fulfil the prayer of Jesus, that we be consecrated in the truth. Lord, in your mercy, consecrate us today. Amen.
Today we keep the feast of St Matthias, chosen, as we heard in Sunday’s first reading from the Acts of the Apostles, to replace Judas Iscariot and so make up the number of twelve in the company of the Apostles. However, as we are reading the High Priestly Prayer of Jesus this week, I think it better to carry on with our daily meditation where we left off yesterday and hope to carry on tomorrow. Our Gospel reading takes us to Chapter 17 of John and the High Priestly Prayer of Jesus, with which his discourse at the Last Supper concludes. Today we read the first eleven verses. Jesus raises his eyes to haven and says: ​“Father, the hour has come: glorify your Son so that your Son may glorify you; and, through the power over all mankind that you have given him, let him give eternal life to all those you have entrusted to him. And eternal life is this: To know you, the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom you have sent.” The hour of Jesus is his Passion, Death and Resurrection, by which he glorifies the Father and he, in turn, is glorified by the Father, who has given Jesus all power in heaven and on earth. The power or kingship of Jesus is the power to do good and to save. In fact, by his Cross and Resurrection, he will redeem the world. The gift the Father gives us in the Son is the gift of eternal life, which means to know the one true God and Jesus Christ his Son, our Saviour and Lord. This knowledge we acquire though the Paraclete, the Holy Spirit, living within us and guiding us into all truth. Jesus also prays for his disciples, for each one of us too, “I pray for them; I am not praying for the world but for those you have given me, ​​because they belong to you: all I have is yours and all you have is mine, and in them I am glorified. I am not in the world any longer, but they are in the world, and I am coming to you.” Jesus prays for us, as he knows only too well that, although we believe that he was sent by the Father to be our Redeemer, nevertheless our faith is not always strong and we easily lose that faith and give in to the ways of the world and the prevalent spirit of relativism and cynicism. He prays for us because we belong to God and need to be protected from that world of sin and unbelief, that surrounds us. Jesus says that he is glorified in us, by the sincerity of our faith and the integrity of our lives. Jesus looks to what now lies ahead in his mission as Saviour, his Passion, Death and Resurrection and then his Ascension, while his disciples remain to struggle on earth. We, as they, need the gifts and charisms of the Holy Spirit to see us through and help us follow in the footsteps of Jesus, offering our lives too for the salvation of all God’s creation. So, as we prepare to celebrate the Solemnity of Pentecost, we pray for a further outpouring of the Holy Spirit. Come, O Holy Spirit, come. Amen.
​On this feast of Our Lady of Fatima, we continue to pray for peace with justice between Palestine and Israel and for an end to the destruction and killing. Let us also remember other parts of the world, especially Ukraine and Sudan, where conflict, war and acts of terrorism take place on a daily basis. These areas have dropped out of the headlines, but the suffering and injustice go on unabated and world leaders seem helpless to improve or change the situation. All thousands of children have ever known in their short lives is violence, bloodshed and death. This cannot be right or acceptable. ​According to John, it is at the Last Supper, during his farewell discourse, that the disciples finally proclaim their faith in Jesus and acknowledge him to be the Son of God. This is what we hear in today’s Gospel reading, (Jn 16: 29-33). It is because Jesus is speaking plainly to them and no longer in metaphors that they are able to say, “We believe that you came from God.” He replies: ​​“Do you believe at last? Listen; the time will come – in fact it has come already – when you will be scattered, each going his own way and leaving me alone. And yet I am not alone, because the Father is with me.” We read these words in the context of his Ascension, but they are pronounced on the eve of his Crucifixion and Death. It is true that Jesus foretold perfectly what was to happen when he was arrested and tried by the high priests. The disciples did scatter and leave him alone to face his Passion, yet we know that the Father was always with him. Jesus had told them, “I and the Father are one.” Yet Jesus does not speak harshly, nor does he reprimand them, in fact, quite the opposite. “I have told you all this so that you may find peace in me. In the world you will have trouble, but be brave: I have conquered the world.” They are to find peace in his suffering and death, in the shedding of his blood. On Easter Day, when he appeared to his disciples in the upper room, he says, “Peace be with you,” showing them the wounds in his hands and his side. They are to find courage in the fact that he has conquered all that is evil and through his Death and Resurrection vanquished sin and death. May we find that same courage. Amen.
​Today’s Gospel reading is taken from Chapter 17 of John, (Jn 17: 11-19), and is part of the concluding words of Jesus spoken at the Last Supper, part of what is known as his High Priestly Prayer. Jesus raises his eyes to heaven and prays to his heavenly father for his disciples, that they remain faithful and united to each other and to the Father in and through Jesus. “Holy Father, keep those you have given me true to your name, so that they may be one like us. While I was with them, I kept those you had given me true to your name. I have watched over them and not one is lost except the one who chose to be lost, and this was to fulfil the scriptures.” Jesus sees his disciples as a gift given him by his heavenly Father. He has kept them true to his name and prays that they will remain ever thus, that they might be united to one another as Jesus is to the Father. This is a prayer for unity as well for fidelity. ​Jesus, however, is now leaving his disciples to return to the Father from whence he came. He has taught his disciples, that his joy might be in them. “But now I am coming to you and while still in the world I say these things to share my joy with them to the full.” Jesus longs for the joy of the Spirit to fill the hearts of his disciples and transform their lives, even in suffering and persecution. He knows that if the world (those who reject God and his Anointed One) has hated him, whom the Father has sent into the world that the world might be saved, then it will also hate his disciples. “I passed your word on to them, and the world hated them, because they belong to the world no more than I belong to the world. I am not asking you to remove them from the world, but to protect them from the evil one. They do not belong to the world any more than I belong to the world.” Jesus prays that they be protected from all that is evil, beginning with the very source and spirit of evil. For this he asks the Father to consecrate them in the truth of his word. “Consecrate them in the truth; your word is truth. As you sent me into the world, I have sent them into the world, and for their sake I consecrate myself so that they too may be consecrated in truth.” Jesus consecrates himself that they might be consecrated in him, for he is the Way, the Truth and the Life. They will be strengthened and sanctified by the power and purity of his word, the word of truth. ​Lord, we pray today that we, like the first disciples and apostles, might be consecrated in the truth by Jesus, our Lord and Saviour. We pray earnestly for the gift of the Holy Spirit, that our lives might be transformed in such a way that we become icons of the Risen Christ wherever we may be. Amen.
​Yesterday I had the great joy of spending the day with my mother. The weather was glorious from start to finish with the most wonderful sunset to greet me when I arrived back at Belmont. It was only my third visit home since Toby’s death, so the pain of bereavement was still raw, especially for my mother, who always looked forward to much to our visits. It also meant that I didn’t take a walk on the beach or visit the marsh to see if my favourite orchids are on the way to blooming. However, a dear friend rang us from Brighton and we had a lovely hour’s conversation with him by videocall, which set us up for the weekend. ​Our Gospel today takes us back to John, (Jn 16: 23-28), and continues our reading of Jesus’ farewell discourse to his disciples at the Last Supper. He asks them to pray, reminding them that whatever they ask for in his name, they will receive. “Anything you ask for from the Father he will grant in my name. Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive, and so your joy will be complete”. In the Lord’s prayer, Jesus taught us to say, “Thy will be done on earth, as it is in heaven,” so every prayer has to express the desire that God’s will, not ours, be done. Most surely then we will receive, and our joy will be complete. ​Jesus warns his disciples that the time is coming when he will no longer speak to them in metaphors but in plain words. “I have been telling you all this in metaphors, the hour is coming when I shall no longer speak to you in metaphors; but tell you about the Father in plain words. When that day comes you will ask in my name; and I do not say that I shall pray to the Father for you, because the Father himself loves you for loving me and believing that I came from God. I came from the Father and have come into the world and now I leave the world to go to the Father.” Because we love Jesus, the Father loves us, for he loves us in his Son. Christ is the prism through which God sees us and we see God. Jesus then announces his departure, which the Synoptic Gospels describe as his Ascension. John describes this as, “now I leave the world to go to the Father.” But Jesus will not leave his disciples alone and undefended, no, he will send the Comforter, the Holy Spirit, and through the Spirit, he will continue to be with them and even more so, for he will live in them and they will live in him. Lord, how can we thank you enough for the gift of the Spirit?
​Today our Gospel passage from John, (Jn 21: 15-19), takes us on from the Last Supper to one of the post-resurrection appearances of Jesus to his disciples. It takes place on the shore of Lake Galilee, where Jesus has encouraged his disciples to cast out deeper into the waters for a miraculous catch and then shared breakfast with them. It’s at this point that we pick up the story, with the conversation between Jesus and Simon Peter. “After they had eaten, he said to Simon Peter, ‘Simon son of John, do you love me more than these others do?’ He answered, ‘Yes Lord, you know I love you.’ Jesus said to him, ‘Feed my lambs.’ A second time he said to him, ‘Simon son of John, do you love me?’ He replied, ‘Yes, Lord, you know I love you.’ Jesus said to him, ‘Look after my sheep.’ Then he said to him a third time, ‘Simon son of John, do you love me?’ Peter was upset that he asked him the third time, ‘Do you love me?’ and said, ‘Lord, you know everything; you know I love you.’ Jesus said to him, ‘Feed my sheep.’” Why would Jesus ask Peter three times whether he loves him? Could it be because Peter denied him three times? Or, perhaps, to make sure and confirm that Peter was making a firm commitment to the love that demands service and self-giving, for each time Peter replies that he does, even to the extent of becoming angry and impatient that Jesus should ask him three times, Jesus replies by saying, “Feed my lambs. Feed my sheep”. Do we love Jesus as Peter did and to what does that love commit us? ​Then Jesus warns Peter of what that love will ultimately lead to and the death he will face for love of Jesus. “I tell you most solemnly, when you were young you put on your own belt and walked where you liked; but when you grow old you will stretch out your hands, and somebody else will put a belt round you and take you where you would rather not go. In these words, he indicated the kind of death by which Peter would give glory to God. After this he said, ‘Follow me.’” You could say that the Gospel story begins with the calling of the first disciples, Jesus saying to those he has chosen, “Follow me.” Now the Gospel ends with the very same words, “Follow me,” for in life and in death, Jesus calls us to follow him, to take up our cross daily and follow him, to preach the Gospel by our faithfulness and humility, our love and generosity, by the very integrity of our lives. Let us remember those words of Jesus every day, no matter where we are or what we’re doing, in any and every circumstance, “Follow me.” May the Holy Spirit empower us to say with Peter, “You know, Lord, that I love you.” Amen.
​The Acts of the Apostles takes over the story of the Ascension just where Luke’s Gospel leaves off. “Now as he blessed them, Jesus withdrew from them and was carried up to heaven. They worshipped him and then went back to Jerusalem full of joy; they were continually in the Temple praising God.” But before they return to Jerusalem, the angels ask them why they are standing there looking up into the sky. They tell the disciples that Jesus, whom they have seen ascending into heaven, will come back again just as they have seen him go. ​What is the meaning of the Ascension? The Gospel tells us that three things are going to happen as a result. Christ ascends into heaven and yet, (1) “Behold, I am with you until the end of time”, (2) “Not many days from now, you will be baptised with the Holy Spirit”, and (3) “The Son of Man will return on the clouds of heaven”. Although Jesus has ascended to the Father, he is still here with us, in the Church, in the Sacraments, in the Scriptures, and in each one of us. He is with us through the outpouring of the Holy Spirit, the “other Advocate, who will remind you of all that I have told you.” He will return on the Last Day to be with us again. The Ascension is the fulfilment of the prophetic name Emanuel, God-is-with-us. ​Human beings think in linear time scales: past, present and future, but with God, who is eternal, there is no past or future, only the present. Eternity has no length and cannot be measured. Eternal life is living fully in the present moment, living in God. The Ascension is a breakthrough, where time enters eternity, just as at the Incarnation eternity entered time. ​In the Ascension hymn “Hail the day that sees him rise,” Charles Wesley writes: “Lord, though parted from our sight, far above yon azure height, grant our hearts may thither rise, seeking thee beyond the skies. There we shall with thee remain, partners of thine endless reign; there thy face unclouded see, find our heaven of heavens in thee.” Heaven is not a place: Heaven is a person, Jesus Christ, and eternity is God’s life, which he has graciously shared with us, his children, through the death and resurrection of Jesus. ​The Gospel begins with an angel announcing the Incarnation, first to Mary and then to Joseph, and a choir of angels announcing the birth of the Messiah to the shepherds. The Gospel ends with an angel announcing the Resurrection to another Mary, and with Jesus, God’s own Angel, announcing the coming of the Holy Spirit to the Apostles, and with two angels announcing that Jesus will return. ​What, then, does the Ascension mean for us? Jesus, Word of God and Son of the Father, who took our human flesh from the Virgin Mary and became Man, thus uniting heaven to earth, God to Man, at his Ascension took into heaven, took unto himself, our human flesh, this frail, sinful body of ours. A part of us is already at the right hand of the Father, transfigured, glorified and eternal. ​The Ascension fills us all with joyful hope, because it is, of all the Church’s feasts, the feast of hope, joy and fulfilment, the feast that celebrates both a mission accomplished and a mission just beginning. When all seemed lost, Jesus rose from the dead and just when it looked as though he was leaving us for good, he tells us that he will be with us always, that he will never leave us. He promises us the gift of his own Spirit and he assures us that he will come again in glory and that all will be well, that our heaven of heavens will be truly in him. ​To Jesus Christ, our risen and ascended Lord, be all glory, praise and worship in time as in eternity. Amen.